Red in the face

Had first lunch today because of this chemistry thing. Danika and I couldn't find anyone we knew so we joked that the two of us would be losers and sit at a table by ourselves. Instead, we saw Eric, and he sat with us-making the two losers, three, and thus eliminating any loserness about us. We had a very good time, even though Eric wasn't being as nice as he should have to me. Unfortunately Eric knows who I liked-past tense-and even though I told him I don't like that guy anymore, he feels the need to embarrass me. So he asked me how things were going with a certain guy (he didn't mention the name because of Danika and I thank goodness for that) and, unfortunately, I was taking a big bite out of my sandwich, so I could not respond. Later when we (Danika and I and Eric) were at Eric's locker, I thought Eric was going to fall over with a heart attack. We were joking about these secret pals (cheerleader to cheerleader) who have to put gifts in lockers and Danika's books were falling out...moving on, we were joking and I didn't know what to call her fellow cheerleaders, so I called them: Cheermates. Eric almost, or maybe he did, fell to the ground. Danika had a chuckle too.

I have something important to say, but I don't know if I should. It's supposed to be a secret, but I'm itching to tell someone or scream. Normally I am good at keeping secrets, but this one is eating away at me. My friend's boyfriend is going to propose! AHHH! I am so excited for her. He's going to propose on Christmas, how uncreative, and cook for her and all that shit. She has no idea and I wonder how she'll react. I mean, she only is a sophomore and they have been dating less than a year. I'd, personally, rather have a promise ring. It, I think, is a little odd to propose to someone when neither of you is a senior or dying. Leann and I were talking and we decided if she does say yes and they do get married, it won't last long. How many high school relationships last? A couple, very few, not too many. Part of me wonders if he's doing it for sex. I know that's mean and he is a really nice, sweet, guy, but since his brother is, um...sexually active, maybe.... I don't want to think about it. That'd be terrible. A major part of me disagrees because they have talked about having sex and that wouldn't make too much sense. I am trying to figure it out-why he's proposing. Her mom went with him to go buy the ring so I guess that means her parents are okay with it. My mom...no. My mother would never agree to it. She'd most likely protest a promise ring let alone an engagement ring. Still, right or wrong, the way he is going to propose is so romantic! If only it weren't on Christmas. I wouldn't want to be proposed to, or married on, Valentine's Day, either of our b-day's, Christmas, or New Year's Eve. Leann and I were joking that I'd want to be proposed to on Groundhog's day and married Arbor day of the next year. No, seriously, I'd want a guy to be more creative in choosing a day. Leann and I started talking about when we would want to get married and I said, if I decide to get married, it'll be a fall/autumn wedding. I love the fall:the leaves, the air, the over-all feel. Yes, an autumn wedding would be great.