What's the use?

What is the use? I am fat. I will never get any skinnier no matter how much I diet or exercise. I am such a huge cow and I need to lose weight. If I was skinnier, I'd be happier. I can't control my life as much as I'd like and I think that if I was skinny, I could focus on more important things. I have rolls, gross, fat, disgusting rolls. They need to die. I wish I could just wake up skinny. I wish I could be one of those people who can eat everything and not gain a pound. I wish I was skinny because then I'd be happy. I need to loose this weight. I should go onto one of those extreme make-over shows so that I can just get it lipo-ed away. I know I'll never be a size four because my hips are way too huge and my bones have grown, but I'd love to be two to four sizes smaller when it comes to pants and a size smaller shirt. I'd say more than a size smaller in the shirt area, but hey!, I'm a girl and I got boobs! I just need to be smaller. If I was skinny, I'd exercise more and eat right to stay that way. If only, if only...