losing faith in humanity

so a couple of days ago this guy i know text me "do u have a bf".
i replied "why?".
"cuz me and lyssa (that's his gf) broke up".
"that sucks. i'm sorry. what happened?".
"we were always fighting. wanna fuck?".
"that stinks. sorry to hear it."
"yeah, you never answered my question".
"hmm, what do you think the virgin is going to say?".
"ur a virgin?".
"yep."
"no you aren't".
"yes, i am.".
"oh".

so today i texted lyssa and asked how she was doing. we used to be best friends awhile back and i know how much she loved him and all that jazz. i told her i was sorry to hear about her and her bf splitting up.
"how'd you hear about that?" she asked me.
i decided to be nice and not say that her bf had text me. i lied and told her a guys name.
then she goes, and this is where i lost faith in humanity.
"lol, funny."
so i was confused and asked "why?"
and here's the kicker...
"its funny cuz i already know that u text andy and he thought it would b funny 2 tell u that".
seriously, what kind of person does that? so i told her i was trying to be a decent person and not say, because i thought they were broken up, that her bf text me. i honestly don't understand kids my age. wow, it's funny to pretend to be broken up with your girlfriend in hopes that someone she used to be close with will now have the "courage to mention their undying passion they have held secret for so long."

and my favorite part is how it seems like she's accusing me of texting her boyfriend. as if i have ever flirted with him or started something. heaven forbid i text someone who, i thought, was a friend. i just want to call her and be like "okay, so you know about that text message, do you know about all the other ones? the ones where begs me for pictures? the ones where he says he's so happy i'm single so he can flirt with me?" seriously, this guy is quite the gem. i tell him that he shouldn't be saying these things because he's in a relationship because i am a good person like that. i doubt she's with him all the times he texts me. is she over at 3am, 7am, and other random times like that? and even if she was, she shouldn't be mad because i have never, ever, said or done anything in response except tell him to shove off.

i can't wait until i'm in college and meet some mature people. i guess i shouldn't assume that college is filled with mature people, but i'm hoping their are at least a couple of people who have outgrown drama. drama is the most pointless thing ever and i don't understand why people try to create it.

i can't wait until i'm older, settled-down, in my career, and married. i am way too excited for this. i can't wait until the day i meet and marry my best friend as cheesy as that sounds. when you've got that one person in your corner no matter what, you really don't need anything else. i just hope i pick the right person.

i am so terrified of picking the wrong person. i mean, what if i love them and they are my soulmate but they decided they like to have extramarital affairs. i'm already worried that i'm going to get divorced. i'm catholic, we don't divorce! i guess i just have to trust that i'll find the right person and that we'll last. marriage is forever and i think too many people forget that. too many people get bored and throw marriage out the door. i also think that people don't realize that marriage is work. i've dated a lot of guys who don't realize that relationships take work and after one argument, are running for the door. i know i'm willing to put up with the fights, the bad habits, and the difference of opinions, i just hope my future...mate...is willing to do the same.

wow. got really serious on the marriage stuff their. wouldn't it be crazy if you just met someone and you guys got married? you hear about some of those couples who are celebrating their 50th anniversy and they got engaged after a month of dating, a week, or a couple of days. what would you say if some guy you just met, a great guy who you just seem to click with, asked you to marry him? you could always have a long engagement.

what is the average age of couples marrying? i think it's slowly getting older and older. people want to build a security blanket for "just in case". i think i want to get married young. the only problem with that is people change and what if you and your spouse change into different people?

i work tomorrow. that should be super fun. an 8 hour shift. i wouldn't even be out of work right now. 1-9. with an hour break for lunch. i hope it goes by quickly. i work with kayla so that should be fun.

i cannot wait to go to the lake on sunday. i work this weekend so i can't leave until sunday at 5, when i'm off work. my dad keeps bugging me about the boy at the lake, i just act like he's a nice guy but i have no interest whatsoever. my mom's like "ask for his e-mail so you can send him those pics you took". i'm not doing anything to progress this...whatever. i'm not going to scare a nice guy away and ruin what could be a great friendship over a crush. if something is meant to happen, it'll happen. i've decided it's time to let my life control my life again. i see what happens when i try and control my love life...see past relationships.

well, i'm off to try and concur a chunk of gone with the wind.

good luck and good night.