confused, as usual.

i've decided i might actually want to pursue this relationship with this one guy, but it's been awhile since we've talked about it, i'm not sure he still likes me. should i ask him? when i do know, i just want to sit back and not have to work at it, but i do, otherwise it all just dies. it's really weird because we don't talk that much, if at all really, in person. i always feel more comfortable talking to them online and then i don't like the fact that i've told them all this stuff about me and it makes me scared that if i have an actual conversation with them, they'll change their mind or there will be all these awkward pauses-i hate pauses.

then there is this other person. who's younger. and i rarely see him. or talk to him. but when we do stuff together i feel like i'm floating. i want to bottle that feeling.

so confused, yet the mind knows.